Yes, It’s only January 2nd, and I’m in a pissy mood. How else would you feel if you were a newly minted 29yo and you walk like you’re an 80yo with years of arthritis buildup? I’ve barely been able to move for the last week at least. My fibro’s been bad, but not this bad since right after I had Zach and I got sent to John’s Hopkins because they had no idea what was wrong with me. I had some lucidity through the fog while switching laundry loads and now I wonder if it isn’t the B complex vitamins my CNRP told me to take for my mood swings. If it is, are those my choices? Be in extreme pain or be a royal bitch all the time? I’ve tried medical drugs for the mood swings, but those turn me into Miss PMS of the Universe. Think husband’s breathing literally makes me stomp off to the bedroom before I rip off his head and spit down his neck. Yeah, THAT’S what the meds do to me.
I’ve looked for support groups in my area, but I can’t find any. There’s plenty for people with arthritis, but I don’t have arthritis. So now I’m in search of a good online group. A place to piss, moan, and commiserate, but not whine. There is a difference. Unfortunately I’ve found a lot of groups to be filled with whiners. Back to your regular scheduled blogging while I go pop more ibuprofen and curl up on the couch with my really soft fleece blanket that now feels like 100 grit sandpaper.